Goodnight

During my binge I consumed 1,900 calories. I'm probably going to gain weight and fat from that binge. It was too many calories. I feel so guilty from eating and from Leo's reaction to me eating. I walked for a few hours and did jumping jacks, push ups, and sit ups. I took diet pills and diuretics and now I need to exercise again. I can't eat tomorrow. My dietitian texted me saying: "You need to be hospitalized I think"
My dad texted me saying: "Leo is not looking at you because your fat. You're not fat. Get that out of your head. He's looking at you because you starve yourself then eat like a ferocious beast the next day. It's not common. You need to stop this." Is this tough love or pure disgust in me? Today has been the worst day; I can't eat.